A day on 'Declan Time'

I am working on something these days in hopes of feeling more at peace with myself now that I'm a working Mom: I am trying to be aware of when I am on "Mama Time" vs. "Declan Time". I am the kind of person who is ALWAYS in a hurry, even if I'm grocery shopping. I pretty much have two speeds: full throttle or stop. All you Mothers know - full throttle DOES NOT work with a child.

For the first 19 months of Declan's life I was ALWAYS on "Declan Time". I was going through life in first gear. Moving along, very slowing, taking everything in. I suddenly became a single parent and I reverted back to the old me. Hurry up and move, hurry up and get a degree, hurry up and.... well, just hurry. I spend too much time worrying, planning and working for the future. The Journey. The Journey! What about The Journey?

I know that there are times when I MUST be on "Mama Time" to pay the bills and get us fed, ect. But TOO, TOO often I could live my life on "Declan Time", crusin' along in 1st gear gettin' it done, enjoying the ride.

I'm trying to be aware, EVERY day, of when I CAN can live my life on "Declan Time". It has, after all, been the best time of my life.


So today, all day, is a "Declan Time" day. No schedule, no place to be. Nothing HAS to get done, I can just enjoy the view.